I am a blog stalker

And it is an addiction I am trying to cure. I don’t check my blogger dashboard nearly as often as I used to and this is a GOOD thing since I follow a LOT of blogs. There are several though that I always try to take the time for. Tara Whitney in particular, usually makes me stop, smile, and appreciate something I had not thought about before. Not to mention, I absolutely adore her work.

As I was catching up on a few blogs tonight, I ran across her post from yesterday about this very neat fellow blogspot blogger and I just had to check it out for myself.

NotebookDoodles, thank you for your little pieces of inspiration.

And considering the time of night I am writing this, I felt this one to be highly appropriate.

There are many many more where these came from but I these were some of my favorites. I will let you find your own. ;)

Now I must go to bed, early for me, because I have a long day ahead of me tomorrow. Night night loves.

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Multi-tasking...it's a way of life

Ahhhhhh life.

My evening has been a sporadic amalgam of different activities and I find it amusing how they don't mesh but must. I sat on my laptop working on a new slideshow to put on my site while I watched the 2007 version of "Persuasion" put out by Masterpiece Theater on my husband's laptop on Youtube.

After that, I get out the two baskets of laundry that need to be folded, plug in my earphones to listen to a little episode of DaneSanders.TV as seen below:



Midway through listening to the tips about how to gear my mind towards making a business more productive to the point that I can maintain it doing what I love, I finish the laundry, pause the video and get out the vacuum cleaner. Then I put the vacuum away, start up the video and decide to do a little blog post about the randomness of it all.

Suffice it to say, I have a lot of work ahead of me, not to mention getting over the fear of being successful at what I do. Yeah, I'm messed up in the head.

Well, thank you ever so much for listening to the sometimes strange and random thoughts of Abra Michelle. For your patience, I will reward you with a lovely and much overdo sneak peek to a session I shot OH so long ago.

I promise I will get the rest of these up soon. :)

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Reaching out through a mental fog

I have been in such a funk recently. I can’t seem to get out of it. I hate how I feel and I know that I am worrying my dear husband. I can’t concentrate on anything and my mind keeps firing off thoughts randomly that I can’t follow to completion. A million things can be getting done and I don’t want to do any of it…correction, I don’t have the motivation to do any of it. I want to wish it all done instantaneously and ::whoosh:: it’s done.

Spencer texted me this morning:

“We are doing a coffee shop called the human bean. I didn’t get it at first.”

What a cool name for a coffee shop.

I’m tempted to cut all my hair off again. I want to go to Cali (isn’t that a cool way of spelling that name…like California) and telling her what I am feeling and having her go at it. Except for the fact that I think that will make me even more unhappy with my fat face. That’s it. Starting today I am going on another sugar free sabbatical. I am announcing it on here so that I can actually stick to it. This time I am not getting any sugar free candy or ice cream as a crutch. Fruit…no sodas…and natural, harder to breakdown sugars like cane juice only occasionally like in my favorite teas.

So I am getting incredibly discouraged with all of my online endeavors because they do not seem to be going anywhere. I get next to no traffic in my shop or in my blog and I just don’t feel the love as I hoped that I would. I think my expectations may be too high. I wanted everything to take off right away reaffirming that I do have talent and people would appreciate that talent if only I got it out there for the world to see. In my head, I knew and know this to be unrealistic but my heart takes it personally.

I’m so excited that my sister-in-law is coming into town today although it is for a sad/sweet reason. Helping mom and pop-in-law move. It is going to be a busy next few weeks. It doesn’t seem real yet.

I have no idea what to get my in-laws for their anniversary coming up in July.

There are so many things that I am going to miss about my in-law’s house. The large inviting living room, the kick butt open kitchen, not to mention the kick butt upstairs shower, the pool that I never took enough advantage of, the amazing hydrangea bush by the back door. . .

Is this not the most beautiful Hydrangea. I absolutely love this flowering bush. It's fast becoming my favorite. {{Soon to be on sale in my shop for anyone who is interested}}

. . .because it is the hardiest most beautiful one I have ever seen…and the memories. I know that selling a house does not mean selling the memories, those are yours to keep, but it does mean selling all the future memories that won’t have the chance to be made there.

I felt the same way when Mom and Dad sold our home of almost 10 years on Lennox Drive. We moved into that 4 bedroom, 3 bathroom home (not just a house) with an ailing grandfather, two teenage girls and the parents. By the time it was sold, only the parents were left. However, good reasons don’t take away the sadness.